i wanna marry you..

i do.

wanna spend the rest of my life with you. i'm sure of that. i want God, my parents, my son, all my family & friends to witness it. i even want my enemies to see and hate their souls out. i want you to have my last name. i want to spend every second of the rest of my life being with you. i want to see you walking from across the room, courtyard, church aisle, beach..wherever you want to have it.. and think to myself that i could never ever see a more beautiful woman than the one approaching me.

i want to wait in anticipation for you to reach me. to see you. to countdown the minutes till you belong to me, and i belong to you. i want your parents to give you to me. to trust me. to love me. i want you to help me raise my son. i want you and my son's mother to get along. and even if you don't it don't matter cause i don't get along with her half the time anyway. but it'd be nice.

i want to look in your eyes, hold your hands, and just know it's right. just know you're right. i want to feel like we're alone in this big room despite all the people around us. i want time to stop. i want to feel the blessing of God cover us. i want to vow to be with you & only you forever. and i promise that to him, to you, to everyone that is watching. i take that vow seriously. i want you to take it as serious as i do. i want to get choked up on my feelings. caught up in the moment. i want you to squeeze my hand, to let me know it's ok. to let me know that you feel the same way. i wanna watch your eyeliner run just a little bit as you catch a tear or two. i wanna laugh when you pause before you say the, "honor and obey" part. as if you have to think about it. i can't wait to hear those two words leave your mouth.

 i do.

two words that have never meant as much as they do right now. i can't wait to kiss you as my wife. kiss the woman that means everything to me in front of everybody that means anything to me. to hear the minister announce us as one. to walk back down that aisle together, hand and hand...and know i have someone to spend the rest of my life with. someone to laugh with. someone to cry with. someone to love me till my heart stops beating. someone to love me even after it stops.

i wanna watch you electric slide in your wedding dress as your mom & my mom bump into each other cause either one or both of them are going the wrong way. i wanna cut the cake and watch that look on your face, "you better not smash it on my face", while you're smashing a piece on my face. i wanna just stare at you as you hug and talk to our family & friends. still in amazement that God has blessed me with a woman like you. i feel like the luckiest man in the room, world, universe, ever...i want that feeling. i want you. i wanna marry you.



[day #7: sweet talk week]