i know the spark isn't always there. i know the fire has been less than "hot" lately. i know that the love that seemed "unbreakable" is becoming "berlin wall". i can't point my finger at you. please stop pointing yours at me. i honestly don't know what it is, what's missing, what we've lost. i just know we need to find it. we need to find it before it's too late.
tell me what you like....it's been a while since we've just talked. yanno, talked the way we used to. maybe that's what it is. have i stopped listening? paying attention? caring? i'm sorry.
how can i show you that i care?
do i have to go to the grocery store and pick you up some maxi pads? you want the kind with wings? will that show you that i'm willing to embarrass the fuck outta myself for you. will that make you smile? maybe while i'm out pick you up some of your favorite take-out. come home and rub your feet, hold you and NOT try to grope you up. what if i send you flowers like i used to. pick up my shit instead of leaving it all over the floor. do those things i promised to do days, weeks, months ago. stop arguing. stop being impatient. stop getting emotional. yes, i'll admit sometimes i'm dramatic. are we getting anywhere?
how can i make you feel good?
maybe run you a bath. maybe kiss your neck. whisper sweet nothings in your ear instead of yelling about some random shit that isn't even important. can i make love to you? no dirty talk, no rough sex, no biting..that is unless you want that. just tell me what & how you want it. i want to be the student. teach me. teach me how to love you right, again. it's important i do it right this time. life is too short, and you never know when we'll run out of chances.
how can i get that old thing back?
all relationships go through this. everyone has problems, rough patches. we just need to smooth them out and move past them. so are you willing to try with me? are you willing to make it better than before? if you've changed. if i've changed. if the things we want are different, can we compromise? if it's not too late, let me love you harder than i did before. remember how it felt when we first met. now remember all the great things that have happened during the course of the relationship. tell me that doesn't outweigh the bad...
i wanna get back to the point where i make you happy. back to the feeling that there was no one but me for you forever. i want to make you feel alive again. in love again. i want to jump start your heart with my love.
[day #4: sweet talk week]