Wednesday, August 12, 2009

i got such a big ego...*clears throat*...

"So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded." -Hebrews 10:35

and i believe that. everyone who knows me, knows i'm a shy guy. yes, it never appears this way online. "subjects are less outgoing then they appear". but one thing i do have, is confidence in myself. not in a over the top way. not in a "i'm better than you & have to tell you way". moreso in a, "i know i'm good..." way.

i feel like my life has been rewarded many times over. yea yea...i'm having some issues right now, but i guess it's the faith that those things will be overcome w/ some awesomeness in my near future that keep me going. that's the story of my life. i smile because God puts a smile on my face. it's not that i haven't been knocked down, dragged around, hung upside down..etc. it's not that i think i'm favored or owed greatness. it's because i know i'm favored & i am greatness. don't get confused by my "woe as me rants", because it's days like this when i'm just overcome with happiness. so it's days like this when i know God is hanging with his homebody. i feel like i could go out and play in traffic today, and be okay. true, with the feeling of wonderful coating me today it seems more than obvious i will be met with ppl who want to steal my sunshine & make today overcast. but to them, i say...come back tomorrow.

today is not the day, i'm fucking with you!

(i know yall hate that i be cussing & talking about God in the same post..but the Lord has coated just about everything but my tongue today...he knows i can't help it)


rena said...

haha..I love the positivity. Lemme get some of that cause i've been a straight up BIATCH lately :/

tha unpretentious narcissist © said...

lol...alright i got some positivity coming your way.

~Sheila~ said...

I'm glad you are looking upward today. Like I said before, you may have your ups and downs but that is what is going on with all of us at some point. Not all of us have your same issues but the issues we (or our spouses) have take a toll on all of us.

Keeping the faith and living life to the fullest is rewarding enough.