fighting i love you...

it's hard for me to let someone in

i've been hurt before

my heart's damaged

i have trust issues

tons of emotional baggage

i keep coming up with reasons

why you can't have all of me

but i can't shake

that feeling

the one where my stomach's in knots

my legs get weak

i get tongue tied

and i fall

....in love with you

it's right there

on the tip of of my tongue

"i love you"

but i can't say it

i can't

because if i say it i set myself up 

to be hurt again

i let someone in

i let you control my heart

my mind

my soul

excuses

that's what i need

a reason why i can't dive in

a reason why i can't give in

a reason

why i'm not 

falling

but i am

my hearts already there

i can't stop showing you i love you

even though my words haven't caught up

to my actions

tug of war

with my emotions

back and forth

with my heart

i hear the words leave your mouth

and i'm stuck

in a moment of stillness

where it feels like days of silence

the spotlight shines on me

the darkness clears

and i say it...

i love you too

day#3: sweet talk week