i am thankful challenge...day#3

"a friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still, gently allows you to grow" - William Shakespeare

day# 3: i'm thankful for my friends...

when i'm happy, they're there. when i'm sad, they're there. even when i think i'm alone, they're there. my friends aren't deserters. even the one's who i don't talk to as often or they pretend to be fake mad at me. at any moment i needed them or they needed me we'd be there for each other. because that's the type of person i am, and those are the kind of people i befriend. we stay to the end and are always here →←, there →, and everywhere ↔. i thank God for surrounding me with people who feel more like family than friends. you are who your friends are, and if i'm a reflection of my friends it must mean i'm a pretty damn good person myself. cause my friends are kick ass awesome. every single damn one of them.

i'm not the kind of guy who calls everyone my friend. it's never been easy for me to trust or depend on others. so when i say i totally trust & depend on these people i'm honestly saying i love them to death. you get a lot of people who pass through your life, but it's the people who never leave that make your life amazing. once i'm your my friend, we're friends forever...even if you piss me off. because that's what friendship is. it's a bond. it's a relationship. it isn't dependent on things we do, or say to one another. it's dependent on how much that person matters to you. and even if i curse you to the depths of hell...i don't mean it, because at the end of the day i still care about you. you're still my friend, and i'm thankful for the memories and times shared with you. i may want to throw you into the fire, but i'd risk 3rd degree burns trying to pull you back out. because real friends don't grow on trees, aren't easy to find, and aren't ever possible to replace.

i ❤ my friends...

i am thankful challenge...day#2

day #2: i'm thankful for my life..

thanks be to God for the gift of life and that i'm breathing right now. thanks for waking me up, raising me up, protecting & leading me into an amazing life.

life to me is like a book. from your introduction there are people who are anticipating all of the wonderful, fantastic, amazing things you will do and become. your pages are filled with twist and turns. your plot thickens. and there will be people who never  want your story to end.and just like a book, you have to take it "one page (day) at a time" .

my story isn't done, my life is yet to be complete. i have a lot of living left to do, a lot of pages left to write. but i'm thankful for the experiences i've had. good & bad, i only get stronger & smarter. i'm happy i have my life together. that i'm not lost, or looking for "me". you can be happy with life, and not have everything you want. it's what you choose to focus on, that controls your happiness. i know too many people who think their happiness is dependent on their job, their relationships, their finances..etc. when in reality no one controls your happiness but you. if you're unhappy with yourself....it starts and ends with you no one else. take responsibility for your happiness, and be thankful for all the blessings you overlook daily. when you add them up, you'll find the good outweighs the bad..always.

write on.

i am thankful challenge...day#1

day #1: what i'm thankful for right now...

thursday nights....anyone with kids knows how your life has to operate on a schedule. you have to get them up, get them out, pick them up, get them settled, homework...etc. everything i do from tuesday  to saturday  all revolves around my son's schedule. we get up at the crack of dawn. get home just in time to do homework and get him in bed before 9pm. one day that is the break from the norm is thursday.

this is the one day we either hit our local mexican resturant, or some random resturant to watch thursday night football with my boy Chuck, grab a beer (my son gets a cherry coke), and some good eats. it's become one of my son's favorite days as well as mine. at first i'd leave him with my mom or my cousin (the mother of my god kids)...but he started telling me he wanted to come with me. so we make it a night. we still get back in before 10:30pm, so he get can in the bed. but it's one of our special nights where he feels like one of the boys. and i get to relax, grab a drink, & hang out. thank God it's thursday!

Thanksgiving Challenge...

so since i've been missing in action....i've had a few naysayers, who think i'm not about that challenge life.

so just to prove them wrong. i'm committing to this Thanksgiving challenge brought to me in part by my girl Freckles.

starts..nov. 1.

*if you're participating hit me up and let me know so i can check you out.

what i was looking for. . .

are your lips lonely?
do you mind if i introduce them to mine..
your wondering hands are restless...
do you mind if i give them a place to rest?
your heart is racing...
do you mind if mine joined in and they ran off together? someone grab a straight jacket cause i'm crazy about you. every second you're away the counter in my heart clicks away it's been 1 month, 3 weeks, 1 day, 6 hours, 34 minutes, and 42..43..44 secs since i've been close to you. i just want to reach out and touch you, hold you, kiss you, _ _ _ _ you...and a lot of random other things i like to do to and with you. can you smell the obsession on me? no not the cologne the scent of "i want you so bad it hurts to look at the moon because i get jealous it sees you every night and i don't" that lingers on my t-shirt that you cling to when i leave. i love you. i'm in love with you. that's the bridge i've went over and burned behind me..cause i'm not looking back. i bought a one way ticket to your love. no trip insurance, no refunds, no exchanges. my love train is headed toward your station....choo choo. i'm not slowing down. destination love land. i can't wait to ride your rides. eat your concessions. and look at all of the attractions. 

what do you say when "i love you" is not enough. when there are no words that can come close to explaining how i feel right now. " _ _ _ _  _ _ _ _    _  _ _ _ " fill in the blanks with anything you feel appropriate. anything that sounds awesome. anything that you want to hear. because i'm out of compliments. how many times can i call you beautiful, pretty, amazing, lovely, sexy, dazzling, gorgeous, ravishing, stunning, exquisite, alluring, or enticing? i feel like i say it everyday...you're probably tired of hearing it. so i'm going to just start acting out my feelings....*points at you...breathes out....breath flutters away...i reach out take it and put it in my pocket", get it "breathtaking"..that's what you are. and i'm a little lame for that, but i don't care. as long as you understand how i feel. i went searching for love and i found you. you're what i was looking for. 

day#7: sweet talk week

the way i feel.....

my life is better

whenever you're around

my heart is alive 

my soul is on fire

i feel electric 

powered by desire

fueled by passion

driven by emotions 

you take me there

higher than the clouds

further than the sky

out of this atmosphere 

i feel like i can fly

if my eyes are a window 

to my heart & my soul

then my window's wide open

because there is no door

no walls

no obstructions

no uncertainty

i know for sure

it's you..i want & need

my choice is you

there is no second

no runner ups

just you 

for me

i stake my claim

i scream to the world

i love this woman

i love her more than

numbers i could count

days i could live

or things i could do

if i dived into the deepest ocean

i could never swim to the depth 

of my love for you

if i walked into a burning building

i could never match 

the fire that burns in my heart for you

if i wished upon a star

i'd merely be wishing upon you

for you are the decoration in my sky

the wish that came true

this is only a fraction 

of the way i feel

for you..

day#6: sweet talk week

old school love

i want that old thing back...

that old school loving

when i see a pretty woman

i know how to approach you

stop you by saying: 

"excuse me pretty lady

my name is . . .

i couldn't let you walk by 

without telling you how beautiful you are"

and instead of you taking it as a pick-up line

you actually knows how to take a sincere compliment

you smile

and introduce yourself 

i want to be able to ask you out for lunch

maybe a movie

or a drink

without you assuming my intentions are wrong

i want to show up with flowers 

open your door

pay for the date

walk you to your door

instead of pulling up at your house 

and letting you walk alone

i want to respect your boundaries

court you

show you what dating is

show you what a man does when he's interested in you

not what he does when he just wants to have sex with you

i want to meet your friends

meet your parents

go through all of the avenues of a relationship

i want to show you i'm a provider

that i can take care of you

and i want you to let me take care of you

i want to buy a ring

get down on one knee

and ask you to marry me

first comes love

then comes marriage

then we can talk about the babies

in the carriage

i want to be your partner

your best friend

and stay together

forever

like they used to do it. 

i want that old school love

day# 5: sweet talk week

i ♥ chocolate ladies..

Hey there chocolate lady
i think you're beautiful
can i get drunk on your chocolate
tipsy on your soul
follow your chocolate with kisses
to the center of your roll

if they tried to make me go to rehab...
i'd say: no, no, no.
i can't give up the chocolate. i love it too much. i'm just naturally drawn to your brown perfection.

there's so much energy spent on trying to categorize you. trying to fit you in a stereotype. when there is no way you could be explained, or contained. the skin you're in is shaded with care. i love your chocolate whether it's with cream and sugar or rich & dark. as i said before "God loved the brown tones so much he kept using the brown crayons to color his people. you've been shaded by God, now tell me that ain't beautiful or you ain't beautiful? ". so come here before hershey kidnaps you for flaunting all that chocolate around. i get a cavity just thinking about you. from latte cocoa mocha to caramel brownie fudge just describing your skin tones sounds delicious. i have a secret to admit. i ♥ looking at you. i know you catch me staring. i can't help it. God, placed you on this earth to be breathtaking to my eyes. he packaged you so uniquely that you'd stand out in the crowd. your hips, lips, curves... memorize me. i lose my concentration, when you walk by. your hair, whether long or short. natural or permed. is a extension of your personality. you wear it, it doesn't wear you. your confidence is sexy. your mind is your power. you're the thread to my fabric, the spider of my web. interlocking, interweaving...you hold me together. you create a foundation that's strong, a love that's unmatched.


see, there are guys out there who are intimidated by you. they lack your drive. they lack your confidence. they lack your strength. don't ever sacrifice any of that to fit in a mold that's too small to hold you. and don't pay a guy any mind when he says he doesn't like, love or want a black woman. this is the kind of guy who'd throw the winning mega millions ticket away. because you possess everything a man could ever want or ever need. so don't let one man's stupidity get you down. there are a lot of of us out here that stan for you. i've been a member of the "love a black woman" team since birth. the woman responsible for me being here is a black woman. the woman responsible for my son being here is a black woman. how could i not love the source of my presence and my future? like i previously said years ago, "don't let anyone tell you there is a boycott on black women. you can't boycott your manufacturer. we are, all of us..because of you. so thank you."


thank you for holding us down...when everyone else gave up on us. thank you for lifting us up when we fell and needed support. thank you for remaining loyal..and loving us the way we should all love you. thank you for nurturing, birthing, raising our children. thank you for wanting more..and pushing for us to be better for ourselves as well as you. you enable us to be greater, stronger, & smarter than we've ever been. so come on chocolate lady, let's go rule the world....

day# 4: sweet talk week

fighting i love you...

it's hard for me to let someone in

i've been hurt before

my heart's damaged

i have trust issues

tons of emotional baggage

i keep coming up with reasons

why you can't have all of me

but i can't shake

that feeling

the one where my stomach's in knots

my legs get weak

i get tongue tied

and i fall

....in love with you

it's right there

on the tip of of my tongue

"i love you"

but i can't say it

i can't

because if i say it i set myself up 

to be hurt again

i let someone in

i let you control my heart

my mind

my soul

excuses

that's what i need

a reason why i can't dive in

a reason why i can't give in

a reason

why i'm not 

falling

but i am

my hearts already there

i can't stop showing you i love you

even though my words haven't caught up

to my actions

tug of war

with my emotions

back and forth

with my heart

i hear the words leave your mouth

and i'm stuck

in a moment of stillness

where it feels like days of silence

the spotlight shines on me

the darkness clears

and i say it...

i love you too

day#3: sweet talk week

love police . .

the hunt.....is on. 

i've got a warrant for your love.

 a ticket for your pleasure.

and a badge that certifies i serve to please.

so...

turn around

s l o w l y

"you have the right to remain silent

..but i prefer if you didn't."

let your dress hit the floor

and let your insecurities go..

"damn you're so beautiful..."

let me make love to your ego

let me stroke it

till you ...

can't take it anymore

your body can't feel what your heart can't see

so tonight 

i want your body to see what your heart feels

close your eyes

let your other senses take over

listen. breathe in. taste. feel. 

how much i love you.

let me chase your kisses...

like a game of tag.

i kiss you, you kiss me

we kiss like tomorrow won't happen

and if it does we'll 

start all over

..again

top to bottom

front to back

i want to earn my explorer badge

discover unexplored territory

like the arch of your nose

the crease of your wrist

the tips of your fingers

all of those places you never 

knew could feel so good

i'm not an ordinary 

lazy.

selfish.

or 

neglectful lover.
so please forgive me if i linger

 get lost.. 

in you

just whisper... my name

 when i'm there

i'll show you how much i love to hear you say it

how much tolerance i have for pain

as you dig your nails into my back

scream in my ear

pull me closer

tighter

it's my pleasure

to deliver you to yours

to protect & serve
your body

day #2: sweet talk week