Wednesday, February 1, 2012

i want to matter...in your world

i wake up and think of you. you're on my mind throughout the day. i go to sleep & pray for you. you matter...to me, in my world. but do i matter to you, in your world?

in the story of your life, am i a co-star,  guest star, or just an extra. when you plan for your future, does it include me? or do i fade away like the other people in your past. the other people who no longer matter. . .

it's not my insecurities that fuel these questions..it's my fear that at any moment i could stop existing in your world. i could stop meaning what i think i mean to you. i could stop being all you need, all you want, stop being enough...to you. it has nothing to do with how i treat you. nothing to do with how much i love you. nothing to do with how you felt yesterday or even today...if you don't feel it tomorrow. game over. i lose. #fail.com. and the lack of control over your feelings terrorize me. i just want to matter. to mean something. to enhance your world, your life, your "moments". i want you to miss me. to want me. to....need me, all of the times..most of the times, or at least sometimes.

5 comments:

sunshinestar110 said...

Nice of oyu to join us again..sir

tha unpretentious narcissist© said...

It's the first of the month...yanno I show up like a bill collector. Cut me some slack tho..I was out the country last weekend. I got that manfive we we're talking about last week coming up tomorrow.

amberlee said...

this is how Im feelin,, you nailed it.. ya always do.

Garry said...

Thank Yah sir needed this

Freckles said...

this post is awesome. I have been working on something kin dof similar. Would you please get out of my head?